30 Days of Blogging- Day 3

So, I am up at 1:00 am, unable to sleep- but I figured I could do today's blog entry for the 30 day challenge. It is supposed to be about my first love....



Mike- November 2010

 Well, I honestly think I have only had one real love (as far as dating, etc is concerned). I believe maybe I thought I was in love other times, but I never told any other person that I loved him. In fact, I remember that part of the reason I knew Mike was the one I was going to marry was because I said "I love you" to him so easily, when I had never said it to any previous boyfriend- even the serious ones.
Looking back- I am not even sure I was in love with Mike when we dated, got engaged, and were married. Don't get me wrong- I knew I was supposed to marry him, because I had a feeling, prayed about it- many times- and got an answer. I just don't think I knew what love really was then. Much like the Brad Paisley song "Then" where he talks about different memories and how he looks back and thinks how he thought he loved her then and now she is his entire life, world, etc. I think love is like that.
I have really found a deeper love for Mike in the last year.


Mike playing with Grayson- Tower of the Americas, November 2010



Seeing him with Grayson has made me love him even more. I am seeing him in a whole new light. It is amazing to see your husband become a father.

Mike is funny, hard working, caring, outgoing, a child at heart. He would give anything for Grayson and I. He has turned his life around and became an amazing example to me.

I feel very blessed that our marriage does not end at death. I am grateful that Mike made the decision that he wanted to change his life, and that made it so we were able to prepare together, go to the house of the Lord and be sealed together for time and eternity- and because of that, Grayson, and any future children, will also be part of our eternal family.

I know that in a few years, I will think back and, just as Brad Paisley's song says, think "and I thought I love him then..."